Was productive at the beginning of all this bull shit but slipped hard into depression. I miss my Job so fucking much its killing me. I'm now part time at home depot making in two weeks what I'm used to making in a day, and there is no sign of my industry coming back before 2021. Going back to retail after being successfully self employed in a field I love for a decade is humbling to say the least.
I had a calling out of nowhere to pick up the bible for the first time a few days ago. I finished the book of Mark and and plowing through Luke. I also watched the documentary Belly of the Beast: Directors Cut which really put me on course to believe this is a battle of good and evil and our President was chosen by God to fight this evil.
I joined a Gym yesterday and lifted for the first time in 10 years. Went back today and did not skip leg day. I'm sore, and tired, but that negative voice in my head that has been saying the worst shit to me over and over and over again the last few weeks has been silenced since my first set at the gym yesterday.
Just wanted to share with some people who would understand. I fucking love this place.
Thanks Frens.
EDIT: Thanks for all the encouragement, advice, and kind words. I love you all.
Some peeps just gain weight easier than others. Not a biggie, especially if you’re at the gym.
The depression is warranted, but pinpointing the source doesn’t always make it better. You might have to struggle with it a bit, but don’t let it control your actions. It’s no fun trying to mask reality.
For me, the best medicine is telling myself I will make the right decision at the right time no matter the situation. It doesn’t bring happiness as much as acceptance of the unknown, but helps stabilize your mentality and emotions.
Man, I had to read that like 3 times. That is some really good advice, I'm going to steal that and use it as a mantra when the negative thoughts come creeping back in. Thank you so so much for that.
Just got back from work and read your reply. Happy my sentiments will be of some help.