Was productive at the beginning of all this bull shit but slipped hard into depression. I miss my Job so fucking much its killing me. I'm now part time at home depot making in two weeks what I'm used to making in a day, and there is no sign of my industry coming back before 2021. Going back to retail after being successfully self employed in a field I love for a decade is humbling to say the least.
I had a calling out of nowhere to pick up the bible for the first time a few days ago. I finished the book of Mark and and plowing through Luke. I also watched the documentary Belly of the Beast: Directors Cut which really put me on course to believe this is a battle of good and evil and our President was chosen by God to fight this evil.
I joined a Gym yesterday and lifted for the first time in 10 years. Went back today and did not skip leg day. I'm sore, and tired, but that negative voice in my head that has been saying the worst shit to me over and over and over again the last few weeks has been silenced since my first set at the gym yesterday.
Just wanted to share with some people who would understand. I fucking love this place.
Thanks Frens.
EDIT: Thanks for all the encouragement, advice, and kind words. I love you all.
Hang in there! I’m in the exact same boat. Started a successful small business last year, it was great to be self employed and doing well at it to boot! I lost 70 lbs and felt like a rock star. Stupid panic-demic killed my business, I’m still crawling forward, but could no longer sustain it without additional income. I went back to work at Starbucks (facepalm, I know), but I needed the health insurance and some financial stability. In the meantime I gained 35 lbs of that weigh loss back...feeling pretty shitty, physically and mentally.
Just know you’re not alone. No matter what’s on the horizon, I know there’s an amazing group of people here on TD.win. Y’all are sticking it out same as I am. And I’d shit hits the fan, I know I’m not alone.
Perseverance, hard work, determination, these are the traits that will see us through in the end.
Im so sorry your going though it too right now :( Just like everyone in this thread is saying, its just a matter of time before the good days are upon us. Stay strong and I'll do the same :)