Was productive at the beginning of all this bull shit but slipped hard into depression. I miss my Job so fucking much its killing me. I'm now part time at home depot making in two weeks what I'm used to making in a day, and there is no sign of my industry coming back before 2021. Going back to retail after being successfully self employed in a field I love for a decade is humbling to say the least.
I had a calling out of nowhere to pick up the bible for the first time a few days ago. I finished the book of Mark and and plowing through Luke. I also watched the documentary Belly of the Beast: Directors Cut which really put me on course to believe this is a battle of good and evil and our President was chosen by God to fight this evil.
I joined a Gym yesterday and lifted for the first time in 10 years. Went back today and did not skip leg day. I'm sore, and tired, but that negative voice in my head that has been saying the worst shit to me over and over and over again the last few weeks has been silenced since my first set at the gym yesterday.
Just wanted to share with some people who would understand. I fucking love this place.
Thanks Frens.
EDIT: Thanks for all the encouragement, advice, and kind words. I love you all.
Multiple things here. First. Take care of yourself. Glad you got into the gym. Keep it up. Physical health is mental health. First and foremost we are animals and are not meant to sit inside all day. Second, sorry about the job loss. This is a ton of bullshit and no one should have their living stripped from them. I would however highly suggest opening yourself up to moving anywhere in the country and start job hunting. No work is “bad” however you worked hard to provide a better life. You weren’t meant to work at Home Depot so don’t settle. I moved across the country to get the pay I deserved. Finally, you are awesome don’t forget that. Control what you can and everything else will come in God’s time. God bless pede.