Was productive at the beginning of all this bull shit but slipped hard into depression. I miss my Job so fucking much its killing me. I'm now part time at home depot making in two weeks what I'm used to making in a day, and there is no sign of my industry coming back before 2021. Going back to retail after being successfully self employed in a field I love for a decade is humbling to say the least.
I had a calling out of nowhere to pick up the bible for the first time a few days ago. I finished the book of Mark and and plowing through Luke. I also watched the documentary Belly of the Beast: Directors Cut which really put me on course to believe this is a battle of good and evil and our President was chosen by God to fight this evil.
I joined a Gym yesterday and lifted for the first time in 10 years. Went back today and did not skip leg day. I'm sore, and tired, but that negative voice in my head that has been saying the worst shit to me over and over and over again the last few weeks has been silenced since my first set at the gym yesterday.
Just wanted to share with some people who would understand. I fucking love this place.
Thanks Frens.
EDIT: Thanks for all the encouragement, advice, and kind words. I love you all.
When you are suffering, remember Christ crucified. Offer all your troubles to Christ as a personal sacrifice and carry your cross as He did. Things will get better.
Matt 6: 25Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air: They do not sow or reap or gather into barns—and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?f
28And why do you worry about clothes? Consider how the lilies of the field grow: They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his glory was adorned like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the Gentiles strive after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first the kingdom of Godg and His righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you.
34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Today has enough trouble of its own.