Was productive at the beginning of all this bull shit but slipped hard into depression. I miss my Job so fucking much its killing me. I'm now part time at home depot making in two weeks what I'm used to making in a day, and there is no sign of my industry coming back before 2021. Going back to retail after being successfully self employed in a field I love for a decade is humbling to say the least.
I had a calling out of nowhere to pick up the bible for the first time a few days ago. I finished the book of Mark and and plowing through Luke. I also watched the documentary Belly of the Beast: Directors Cut which really put me on course to believe this is a battle of good and evil and our President was chosen by God to fight this evil.
I joined a Gym yesterday and lifted for the first time in 10 years. Went back today and did not skip leg day. I'm sore, and tired, but that negative voice in my head that has been saying the worst shit to me over and over and over again the last few weeks has been silenced since my first set at the gym yesterday.
Just wanted to share with some people who would understand. I fucking love this place.
Thanks Frens.
EDIT: Thanks for all the encouragement, advice, and kind words. I love you all.
We have been on the exact same path. It's to hot to do anything outside here in Texas and the idea of going anywhere just seems like why bother, I'd rather just stay home than deal with this mask bull shit. I will tell you this though, from working at home depot, the majority of customers I talk to think its all bull shit also. I'll say openly to them I think its all going to disappear around November 4th and I have yet to get anything other than a positive reaction.
Get that blood pumping and you will feel better. I believe in you.