That’s what salvation is. You can now see by the grace of God the darkness to which you were previously blind.

A cynicist is an emotional person who has been deprived of his ideals (disappointed, you could say) and now looks at everyone with suspicion and fear. With God, you see the darkness in others but you can also forgive, and deal with reality in a dispassionate way.

There is no turmoil. You just respond in the way the situation warrants.