I just wanted to somewhere to say this and you guys are the ones I think would care the most. I always wanted to join the military, but I'm too fat. I can't make tape or do the PT test. Two weeks ago I hit the gym and talk to a recruiter to set a plan for where I need to be in order to join the guard.

After two weeks of hitting the gym, and an average daily calorie deficit of almost 2,000 calories, I weighed myself yesterday and I gained .2 pounds. I'm a pretty confident person, but I was heartbroken. How could I have gained weight when I'm eating barely nothing and working my ass off? I didn't go the gym yesterday. I was crushed.

This morning I woke up with new resolve. I hit the gym immediately after work, got my best time yet on the 2mile run (31:16 ain't great, but we'll get there.) , switched to interval running, and today will be my most calories burned in one day and biggest caloric deficit so far. After the gym today I realized, if I'm motivated and emotionally strong enough to go to the gym today after working my ass off for two weeks and gaining weight, then there's nothing really standing in my way.

So, my target is Mid to Late October to make tape, and hopefully bootcamp just after the first of the year.