Still got my guns
Black guy in there said Joe Biden should be in not him I told him I agree
Reason I was there is because buddy overdosed on heroin and his girlfriend who was also my ex and best friend slit her throat. She was the mother of my child.
Going to his shitbed soon and see him in the casket. He was a piece of shit, had no potential and a shell of a man. But he was my buddy.
Going to be hard seeing her at her funeral. I loved her, will always love her. Hopefully I can deal. I'm sure she will be beautiful as ever. Rest in piece Sydney.
Here was her favorite song. Hope you listen
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOHkyZ62jjQ
Thanks for all the messages, you guys convinced me not to do it. I'm back and a shit ton of medication but I'm not craving Jack Daniels anymore. Feeling alright.
One more thing
MAGA
I pray peace over you, friend.
Come here if you need support - we need you around to MAGA.
We all can be - its a part of being human
Amen brother.
RIP Sydney & your buddy.
Glad you're still with us u/kratomlol.
I grieve with thee, brother.
My mom and I are praying for peace for you.
Thank you for choosing to live. We love you!
Things are extremely tough right now, please hang in there. Don’t let the globalists win. That is exactly what they want us all to do! Stay strong, God is always with us.
“Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and I will help you. I will lift you up with my righteousness right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
Great to hear from you again! Been keeping an eye out for ya! I remember that night and i thank God that you have decided to keep fighting with us all. Many prayers were said for you and i pray for you still.
God Speed 🙏
I will pray for you. Just remember... If you were successful, you would have given every person who loves you a life sentence of pain. remember that it isn't about you, it's about the people around you... Now, you can include all of us. Keep breathing. Wake up and breathe again. Life is worth it.
I was downvoted for this message. hmmm.
Some sicko did that.
Sorry for your loss. Life seems to be hard for a lot of people lately. This group helps me keep my head up in hard times. It’s great being around like minded people. You are that every bit stronger just by lasting another day. Keep your head up. There has to be better days right around the corner for all of us. -GodBless
Glad you didn’t go through with it, and you are still here. You have a purpose. You are never alone, god is always with u. Prayers for you .
Made an account just to comment, this hit home for me big time. Stay strong buddy, all of us here for you man. I dealt with drug abuse and depression for my entire 20s... and as cheesy as it seems The_donald really helped me get over that hump in my life. you got this!
You probably shouldn’t own guns...
I understand where you are coming from. But due to what happened i was really going through some shit. Not normally like this. But rest assured they are locked in a safe and now my wife only knows the code to be safe for now.
Good to know you have taken precautions. We need you around.
Slippery slope. Do we also take away shoe laces, toasters, combustion engines, knives, etc.
Yes guns
I don't think he meant that the govt should take his guns but that he should consider getting rid of them until his metal state has improved.
I will buy them at a high price!
Thank God, and thank you for the update.
based on his username, I'm going to go out on a limb and say he knows about it.
That said, if OP (or anyone else) needs an ear, some tips, or anything, I was a heroin (and benzos) addict for 5 years. Have 7+ years clean now. I research and work in addiction and drug policy reform, and am not one of those "you have to do 12-steps," or "you have to do x, y, z" kind of people, and understand that recovery looks different for anyone. Even believe recovery can involve substance use, and the premise for recovery is built on a fundamental understanding of addiction, and that addiction is something entirely different from physical dependence (though obviously they are related, but one does not necessarily mean the other).
In any case, I'm glad you're with us, and nothing but positive thoughts for you bud. I've been there, inches away from ending it all right before getting help and entering recovery. You got this -- work on yourself first, and things will get better. Everything, including pain, is all temporary. The only thing that isn't temporary in life, is death. Don't take any permanent action.
Yes. Family members who cannot use anything else, use Kratom to maintain.
It’s always darkest before the dawn. Friend, I can’t even begin to comprehend the struggles you’ve gone through but I will pray for peace in your life. Don’t ever forget that Jesus Christ has promised us the gift of eternal life and peace if we reach out and accept his grace...we may not be there yet and times are tough but fight the good fight while you can. You will ALWAYS have a more lasting impact on others than you think and don’t ever forget that. Hell, I just went over a gave my wife a kiss (she’s been having a hard day) and will go out and do some other nice things for people because of YOUR story. God bless.
God bless you
Said a prayer for you just now. We're all here for you!
You can’t die now, they’ll count you for the rona. That would be too much bullshit to handle.
She had very good taste in music. RIP and God bless you.
Loss is just a part of living man. Most people just don't have to suffer so much so soon in life. I'm sorry it happened to you. You made the right call though. It's possible to be happy despite tragedy, else we'd all cash it in at some point.
Stay safe brother, your child is going to need you now more than ever!
Stay strong, if I'm understanding this correctly your child is still in the picture and they will need your support advice and guidance in life. Thoughts and prayers to you and your family.
Sending prayers from Vancouver Island BC ... Be well...
You're one of us and we are behind you 100 percent. Stay strong Pede. You got this.
ECT. Electro convulsive therapy. Look it up. Do it. Lifechanging, lifesaving. God bless you man.
This is off topic and you might not know the answer to this (so anyone feel free to answer). But, what's the best way to support someone who's suicidal?
If at all possible have continuous physical alert presence with them. Like only alone in a stripped bathroom for short potty breaks.
Get them off or remove possibility of any meds or drugs or similar "coping" tools. Same with music or media they use to fuel any internal narratives.
Let them talk. Don't argue or tell them they are wrong or hurting others etc for the first 24 hours unless absolutely trying to stop an immediate life endangerment. Just let them get it all out. May go from dead silent to a torrent so be patient.
Keep your own cool and calm, but don't be afraid to show real empathy or understanding- watch for danger of co-signing off on victim status or refusal to own choices or deflection though. Tricky lines.
Have simple nourishing foodstuffs easily served in small portions that will not distract you in preparing- like broth or toast- once they are in a place to eat something. They may go a few days or more with no appetite for many reasons, but at least keep them hydrated.
Find or bring "lovies"- comfort items like a fuzzy throw or heating pad or squishie ball etc- as this can filter in past almost any trauma state to sooth.
When the time comes that they can listen, have real personal silver linings and better or wiser after badness examples to fill the void.
If at all humanly possible have a team ready to spell each other, and all on same page on approach and alertness.
Don't be afraid to call a helpline for live backup or advice.
And most important: thank you for caring enough to be thinking about helping another in crisis.
These seem like tips for when they're actually planning to go through with it. Most of these aren't useful right now and I hope won't be. I'll keep these in mind if it ever comes to that. I do think the venting one \is something I'll take into account though.
My brother is the one I am worried about. Currently we're in different states so I can't be physically present but we do voice call often. I hope things get better for him. Thanks for replying though!
Dang man, I'm sorry you're going through all that right now. I'm really glad you chose not to do it, I know everything sucks right now and it's such a fragile time. I myself had a close call last week and had to also get back on meds. Not as bad as what you're going through but just saying, times are rough. We have to all stick together and support each other more than ever. Stay strong and stay on those meds, and stay away from the booze. Mental health is probably the #1 issue this country is facing right now even though no one knows it. You got this.
Damn dude. Hang in there. If you ever get those feelings again find someone to talk to, even if its one of us here. If you haven't already, definitely look at finding a counselor to talk to about all this shit. It might take a couple to find the right one for you, but its worth it.
First and foremost, regardless of what you believe, suicide has no positive benefit. You dont get to the good place. You hurt the ones you love, especially your kid. Your kid who may follow in your footsteps after growing up without parents. I'm not discounting your pain. Never would. We have all been in some pretty rough spots. Some worse than others. Emotions are very powerful. Don't hold back from telling everyone to fuck off. We tried it your way and now it's my turn. Show your kid and the world what strength looks like. You were on the edge of the void, you got nothing to lose. You wanna die? Go take a job on an off shore oil rig and leave your kid a small fortune. Take up chainsaw juggling. Leave an awesome legacy. Anyone who hangs out around here is not a quitter. To the loved ones that left you, they are gone. Honor their memory, but dont let their misguided decisions dictate your path. Take your pain, get angry, and show the world what they almost missed out on.
May God bless you and help you understand what you can do to help others.
This is the saddest thing I've seen all week and my cousin's funeral was Saturday.
Stay strong, brother, there's nothing in this world worth offing yourself over.
I know it sounds callous at first, but take 4chan's advice: If you're going to jump off a bridge, do a flip.
It's not about denigrating your choice or your experiences. It's not mocking. It means that if you have decided you have nothing left to live for, at least spend your time on your way out doing something great for other people. Worst case scenario, you're still gone and those other people at least got some joy. Best case scenario is it shows you that you do have something good in your life worth fighting for and you realize that rock bottom is behind you.
Shit, man, if you want to die, go wander the ghetto in a Batman mask stopping crime. You'll definitely end up shot dead, but you can maybe save a few people's lives first. And if you don't die, now you're the fucking Batman.
Once you have decided you're going to die, you have no limits. And once you spend a day or two living without limits, you quickly realize how beautiful life can be and won't want to leave it anymore.
I am so glad to hear from you! I have thought of you numerous times since your post. I am glad that you are thinking clearer and dealing with the crap that is in your life. Thank you for letting us know that you are still with us!
Seeing stories like yours makes me see and cherish the humanity that is in this Country and in the hearts of its’ people. It’s why we are here and why we fight. God bless you my friend. Stay strong.
Boots of Spanish Leather is one of my favorite songs too. I loved this rendition. I'm crying for you and the pain you are feeling. Please stay for us. Please stay for those who love you. We are not perfect and from time to time we will hurt you. I'm sorry that we do. But please have patience with us. There will be moments when the pain seems unbearable. Bear it anyway.
"The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those that will not break it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry."
Be strong at the broken places, my friend.
As a survivor of a suicide attempt when I was very young and someone with multiple suicides in my wife's family, I just want to say to you that things can and WILL be better. Don't doom your child to a life of wondering why daddy isn't around and a constant nagging in his/her mind that maybe he/she could have done something to stop it.
A few random thoughts from my experience:
Be the best man you can possibly be. Put your energy into that instead of negativity.
Men lift weights. Do that. Get strong as fuck. Then get stronger. It'll make you feel better all around.
Every time you feel like tearing yourself down, build something. Stop yourself, take a deep breath and build something. Either literally or figuratively. Construct things. A business. A book shelf. A relationship. Something. Before you know it, you'll take a step back and another deep breath and behold all that you have built and accomplished. You will be in awe of what you are capable of.
Be a dad. Cherish every moment, because it's the most important thing you'll ever do. Once in a while a dark thought still creeps into my head, but the thought of my son growing up and me not seeing it is too much for me to bear.
Get your hormones checked. Low T can happen to any guy and can cause serious depression. I've seen guys on boatloads of anti-depressants get completely off with TRT. It's worth a look.
Oh yeah, and fuckin' MAGA like a motherfucker!
A Grief Observed, by C.S. Lewis will help you process and beautifully release to where she belongs your Sydney. It will help you help your kids through it too. THey need you, dad. You're now the only parent they have. Don't abandon them. You can do this with God's grace and strength. Change your family tree and make the generations that come after you tell of how you took a stand and made things better for the generations after you. Praying that God's peace will wash over you in your time of sorrow. Amen
I second this recommendation. C.S. Lewis brought me back from the dark side.
I didn't recognize a good friend of mine when he came to a gig we volunteered at. His face was completely changed & I felt so bad that life got so horrible for him
I pray for you my pede. Stay strong & reach out when you need a friend. If you were close I would suggest gaming with us around a table. Even going to help at the retirement homes helps with some service oriented socialization & gives a sense of purpose & need when feeling down.
I am so sorry to hear about your loss.
You make it through this, you son of a bitch! There are more chapters to your life. Your kid is still around. You should celebrate and grow on that. Be a hero. Be a role model. Find love in new things, and reach out to people.
Rough going for you right now, friend, but try to remember that no matter how bad things seem, none of it will be made better by you being gone. Hang onto life. Better days ahead. Just keep living. You may be the guy who pulls the next guy through.
Im here if you ever want to talk. You can get through this.
u/kratomlol, I'm so sorry for your loss and thrilled you're still with us. My best friend died of a heroin overdose, so I understand some of what you're going through. Fuck that damn drug. I know it's tough, but hang in there and remember you're not alone. You've got all kinds of support from your MAGA family. Praying hard for ya, fren.