First and foremost, regardless of what you believe, suicide has no positive benefit. You dont get to the good place. You hurt the ones you love, especially your kid. Your kid who may follow in your footsteps after growing up without parents. I'm not discounting your pain. Never would. We have all been in some pretty rough spots. Some worse than others. Emotions are very powerful. Don't hold back from telling everyone to fuck off. We tried it your way and now it's my turn. Show your kid and the world what strength looks like. You were on the edge of the void, you got nothing to lose. You wanna die? Go take a job on an off shore oil rig and leave your kid a small fortune. Take up chainsaw juggling. Leave an awesome legacy. Anyone who hangs out around here is not a quitter. To the loved ones that left you, they are gone. Honor their memory, but dont let their misguided decisions dictate your path. Take your pain, get angry, and show the world what they almost missed out on.