Still got my guns
Black guy in there said Joe Biden should be in not him I told him I agree
Reason I was there is because buddy overdosed on heroin and his girlfriend who was also my ex and best friend slit her throat. She was the mother of my child.
Going to his shitbed soon and see him in the casket. He was a piece of shit, had no potential and a shell of a man. But he was my buddy.
Going to be hard seeing her at her funeral. I loved her, will always love her. Hopefully I can deal. I'm sure she will be beautiful as ever. Rest in piece Sydney.
Here was her favorite song. Hope you listen
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOHkyZ62jjQ
Thanks for all the messages, you guys convinced me not to do it. I'm back and a shit ton of medication but I'm not craving Jack Daniels anymore. Feeling alright.
One more thing
MAGA
A Grief Observed, by C.S. Lewis will help you process and beautifully release to where she belongs your Sydney. It will help you help your kids through it too. THey need you, dad. You're now the only parent they have. Don't abandon them. You can do this with God's grace and strength. Change your family tree and make the generations that come after you tell of how you took a stand and made things better for the generations after you. Praying that God's peace will wash over you in your time of sorrow. Amen
I second this recommendation. C.S. Lewis brought me back from the dark side.