Still got my guns
Black guy in there said Joe Biden should be in not him I told him I agree
Reason I was there is because buddy overdosed on heroin and his girlfriend who was also my ex and best friend slit her throat. She was the mother of my child.
Going to his shitbed soon and see him in the casket. He was a piece of shit, had no potential and a shell of a man. But he was my buddy.
Going to be hard seeing her at her funeral. I loved her, will always love her. Hopefully I can deal. I'm sure she will be beautiful as ever. Rest in piece Sydney.
Here was her favorite song. Hope you listen
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOHkyZ62jjQ
Thanks for all the messages, you guys convinced me not to do it. I'm back and a shit ton of medication but I'm not craving Jack Daniels anymore. Feeling alright.
One more thing
MAGA
If at all possible have continuous physical alert presence with them. Like only alone in a stripped bathroom for short potty breaks.
Get them off or remove possibility of any meds or drugs or similar "coping" tools. Same with music or media they use to fuel any internal narratives.
Let them talk. Don't argue or tell them they are wrong or hurting others etc for the first 24 hours unless absolutely trying to stop an immediate life endangerment. Just let them get it all out. May go from dead silent to a torrent so be patient.
Keep your own cool and calm, but don't be afraid to show real empathy or understanding- watch for danger of co-signing off on victim status or refusal to own choices or deflection though. Tricky lines.
Have simple nourishing foodstuffs easily served in small portions that will not distract you in preparing- like broth or toast- once they are in a place to eat something. They may go a few days or more with no appetite for many reasons, but at least keep them hydrated.
Find or bring "lovies"- comfort items like a fuzzy throw or heating pad or squishie ball etc- as this can filter in past almost any trauma state to sooth.
When the time comes that they can listen, have real personal silver linings and better or wiser after badness examples to fill the void.
If at all humanly possible have a team ready to spell each other, and all on same page on approach and alertness.
Don't be afraid to call a helpline for live backup or advice.
And most important: thank you for caring enough to be thinking about helping another in crisis.
These seem like tips for when they're actually planning to go through with it. Most of these aren't useful right now and I hope won't be. I'll keep these in mind if it ever comes to that. I do think the venting one \is something I'll take into account though.
My brother is the one I am worried about. Currently we're in different states so I can't be physically present but we do voice call often. I hope things get better for him. Thanks for replying though!