My story is that I struggled throughout my childhood and early college years with adhd and once I was prescribed I could actually function at capacity with enough time left over to relax and live a healthier lifestyle.
I'm glad I wasn't prescribed as a kid, but my parents enforced a strict, rewards based and time based schedule that kept me functional. When I got to college, I was pulling all-nighters every week until I got prescribed and could focus on what I needed to do.
it's because we are not made to be cogs in a machine. We are highly intellectual beings. The drugs just allow you to focus on mind numbingly dull tasks that sadly = success in our society. All tasks really. Even if you find something you're passionate about and stay focused... nothing compares to chemically enhanced focus.
While is helps us succeed in this society. I'm not so sure it's a net positive. It makes people complacent. I know for a fact i'd get more shit on done on it. Even caffeine takes me from complete lack of focus to laser beam. I'm exactly like the kid described above. I hated school. Busy work. Wasting time. Still do. If i'm not challenged or growing I'm completely incapable of being "productive". I'm a terrible employee in this aspect. I could become a great employee with adderol. But i simply don't believe in altering my mind or body to conform.
There is a reason I'm like this, I'd rather address the problem. Not put a permanent chemical band-aid on it.
Maybe i'm jsut making excuses for my inability to focus... But when put to task, with purpose, a challenge, and a passion i forget to sleep and the time flies by. It's just these tasks are few and far between.
When everyday use to be a fight for survival... Every task was important.
My issue is that I hyperfocus naturally, but that I have trouble controlling what I focus on.
Adderall allows me to decide what to focus on. It mentally calms me.
I would stay up until 2am or pull all nighters without any caffeine or prescription when I was in college. It got to the point where I wasn't getting necessary tasks done.
I agree that a large part of my "issue" is societal. However, in order for me to be healthy and happy in this society, I need this medication. I have a theory that ADHD is not a disorder or a disease, but that the mental type is suited towards hunters and gatherers. I was good at playing stocks and investing in college (with very little money unfortunately). However, I couldn't perform in long term tasks or necessary self care such as diet, time management, or exercise.
hmmmm, no argument here but you sound like me minus the exercise and diet... but i was forced to learn that through wrestling. And would often procrastinate and do it the wrong way until my mid 20s haha.... So it took a very long time to get there... Now exercise for me because of the simplicity and my need to feel completely exhausted has become like meditation for me and allows for semi regular sleep. But that comes with constant soreness at times and annoying injuries.
And i guess you got a point about the focus on things but can't pick what... honestly i get mad at myself doing that quite often at work constantly. Even going through this site more often than i should scouring every last engaging post... and then past that point.
Staying up late as well.... I use to pull all nighters weekly... and still can't fall asleep before midnight without excessive workouts... But i also have a problem with our "daily" routines. We should be able to fall asleep when we need to, and wake up when we are done... Being a part of this society dictates being on other entities schedules... I always joke about if only days were 26 hours each i would simply use that to actually / naturally get 8 hours of sleep.
Maybe i should go to the doctor and conquer the world.... I just worry about all the side effects or changing who i am.
Similar story to mine.
My story is that I struggled throughout my childhood and early college years with adhd and once I was prescribed I could actually function at capacity with enough time left over to relax and live a healthier lifestyle.
I'm glad I wasn't prescribed as a kid, but my parents enforced a strict, rewards based and time based schedule that kept me functional. When I got to college, I was pulling all-nighters every week until I got prescribed and could focus on what I needed to do.
it's because we are not made to be cogs in a machine. We are highly intellectual beings. The drugs just allow you to focus on mind numbingly dull tasks that sadly = success in our society. All tasks really. Even if you find something you're passionate about and stay focused... nothing compares to chemically enhanced focus.
While is helps us succeed in this society. I'm not so sure it's a net positive. It makes people complacent. I know for a fact i'd get more shit on done on it. Even caffeine takes me from complete lack of focus to laser beam. I'm exactly like the kid described above. I hated school. Busy work. Wasting time. Still do. If i'm not challenged or growing I'm completely incapable of being "productive". I'm a terrible employee in this aspect. I could become a great employee with adderol. But i simply don't believe in altering my mind or body to conform.
There is a reason I'm like this, I'd rather address the problem. Not put a permanent chemical band-aid on it.
Maybe i'm jsut making excuses for my inability to focus... But when put to task, with purpose, a challenge, and a passion i forget to sleep and the time flies by. It's just these tasks are few and far between.
When everyday use to be a fight for survival... Every task was important.
My issue is that I hyperfocus naturally, but that I have trouble controlling what I focus on.
Adderall allows me to decide what to focus on. It mentally calms me.
I would stay up until 2am or pull all nighters without any caffeine or prescription when I was in college. It got to the point where I wasn't getting necessary tasks done.
I agree that a large part of my "issue" is societal. However, in order for me to be healthy and happy in this society, I need this medication. I have a theory that ADHD is not a disorder or a disease, but that the mental type is suited towards hunters and gatherers. I was good at playing stocks and investing in college (with very little money unfortunately). However, I couldn't perform in long term tasks or necessary self care such as diet, time management, or exercise.
hmmmm, no argument here but you sound like me minus the exercise and diet... but i was forced to learn that through wrestling. And would often procrastinate and do it the wrong way until my mid 20s haha.... So it took a very long time to get there... Now exercise for me because of the simplicity and my need to feel completely exhausted has become like meditation for me and allows for semi regular sleep. But that comes with constant soreness at times and annoying injuries.
And i guess you got a point about the focus on things but can't pick what... honestly i get mad at myself doing that quite often at work constantly. Even going through this site more often than i should scouring every last engaging post... and then past that point.
Staying up late as well.... I use to pull all nighters weekly... and still can't fall asleep before midnight without excessive workouts... But i also have a problem with our "daily" routines. We should be able to fall asleep when we need to, and wake up when we are done... Being a part of this society dictates being on other entities schedules... I always joke about if only days were 26 hours each i would simply use that to actually / naturally get 8 hours of sleep.
Maybe i should go to the doctor and conquer the world.... I just worry about all the side effects or changing who i am.