My issue is that I hyperfocus naturally, but that I have trouble controlling what I focus on.
Adderall allows me to decide what to focus on. It mentally calms me.
I would stay up until 2am or pull all nighters without any caffeine or prescription when I was in college. It got to the point where I wasn't getting necessary tasks done.
I agree that a large part of my "issue" is societal. However, in order for me to be healthy and happy in this society, I need this medication. I have a theory that ADHD is not a disorder or a disease, but that the mental type is suited towards hunters and gatherers. I was good at playing stocks and investing in college (with very little money unfortunately). However, I couldn't perform in long term tasks or necessary self care such as diet, time management, or exercise.
hmmmm, no argument here but you sound like me minus the exercise and diet... but i was forced to learn that through wrestling. And would often procrastinate and do it the wrong way until my mid 20s haha.... So it took a very long time to get there... Now exercise for me because of the simplicity and my need to feel completely exhausted has become like meditation for me and allows for semi regular sleep. But that comes with constant soreness at times and annoying injuries.
And i guess you got a point about the focus on things but can't pick what... honestly i get mad at myself doing that quite often at work constantly. Even going through this site more often than i should scouring every last engaging post... and then past that point.
Staying up late as well.... I use to pull all nighters weekly... and still can't fall asleep before midnight without excessive workouts... But i also have a problem with our "daily" routines. We should be able to fall asleep when we need to, and wake up when we are done... Being a part of this society dictates being on other entities schedules... I always joke about if only days were 26 hours each i would simply use that to actually / naturally get 8 hours of sleep.
Maybe i should go to the doctor and conquer the world.... I just worry about all the side effects or changing who i am.
My issue is that I hyperfocus naturally, but that I have trouble controlling what I focus on.
Adderall allows me to decide what to focus on. It mentally calms me.
I would stay up until 2am or pull all nighters without any caffeine or prescription when I was in college. It got to the point where I wasn't getting necessary tasks done.
I agree that a large part of my "issue" is societal. However, in order for me to be healthy and happy in this society, I need this medication. I have a theory that ADHD is not a disorder or a disease, but that the mental type is suited towards hunters and gatherers. I was good at playing stocks and investing in college (with very little money unfortunately). However, I couldn't perform in long term tasks or necessary self care such as diet, time management, or exercise.
hmmmm, no argument here but you sound like me minus the exercise and diet... but i was forced to learn that through wrestling. And would often procrastinate and do it the wrong way until my mid 20s haha.... So it took a very long time to get there... Now exercise for me because of the simplicity and my need to feel completely exhausted has become like meditation for me and allows for semi regular sleep. But that comes with constant soreness at times and annoying injuries.
And i guess you got a point about the focus on things but can't pick what... honestly i get mad at myself doing that quite often at work constantly. Even going through this site more often than i should scouring every last engaging post... and then past that point.
Staying up late as well.... I use to pull all nighters weekly... and still can't fall asleep before midnight without excessive workouts... But i also have a problem with our "daily" routines. We should be able to fall asleep when we need to, and wake up when we are done... Being a part of this society dictates being on other entities schedules... I always joke about if only days were 26 hours each i would simply use that to actually / naturally get 8 hours of sleep.
Maybe i should go to the doctor and conquer the world.... I just worry about all the side effects or changing who i am.