Every time in undergrad I wrote and essay and tried to get feedback it was just "100/100 omg you know how to write a complete sentence"

Then in grad school this absolute trash fuckbird made us all write essays - I wrote the best essay of my life - then he LITERALLY told the class as long as we had had emailed him some sort of file we all got 100% and he wasn't going to read any of them. Then he said he hated Lord of the Rings because it was too Catholic and then he opened his Marx and barfed up its sewage.

Left immediately in protest, next school profs were literally giving girls test answers LITERALLY... like they walked around during the tests, specifically going to the female students, KNOWING THEIR JOBS WERE IN DANGER BECAUSE OF THE EXPLICIT GENDER QUOTAS THEY'D BEEN GIVEN. I watched a prof who had called me out for a wrong quiz answer when actually he was wrong start begging a female student to write down the test answers he was begging her to write down while she was basically saying "fuck off, I was just taking computer science for a test drive and I'm just gonna be a Math major".

Any time I asked any professors at all the schools I tried for life guidance, career guidance, ANYTHING! they had NOTHING. NOTHING to fucking tell me. Um how am I gonna get a job? NO FUCKING MEANINGFUL RESPONSE. How do you expect us all to eventually pay back loans? NOTHING!!! Um how can I have a career so I can eventually have my own home so I can have a family? BIG FUCKING ZERO!!! ALL they wanted was MONEY!!! They had no fucking justifications of what they were doing with THEIR lives much less a legitimate flame of true knowledgeable education to pass on.

They forced me to take feminism classes that taught that women didn't rape women (when I'd been raped by several). Some white prof with a degree in Critical Race Theory who was my coach told me there was no such thing as racism against white people while black people I'd been nothing but nice and open with spewed hate speech, death threats, and genocidal daydreams and were given awards for it.

In general, outside of my immediate family, whenever I've tried to reach out for any sort of guidance / mentorship / WTFIshouldbedoingism I've basically been indirectly told to go find a ditch and die.

I was number 2 in my class in Computer Science and sent out so many job applications and the only paying offer I got was $500 for 3 fucking months.

Man, one summer my friend's uncle made him drive combines all fucking summer and tried to stiff him with only $500 bucks and our babysitter CHEWED HIM THE FUCK OUT until proper pay was given for work. These fucking elites turned student loans and "internships" into the new slavery.

I couldn't even find a professor who could help me find a job, much less have my back if an employer tried to rob me. THESE FUCKS DO NOT CARE. They only hate. I don't see much of a way forward, how we can have nice things. I mean, when I got to pre-school or pre-K or whatever first day, I was having trouble with my Capri-Sun and asked another kid for help and he stabbed the straw through and sprayed it all over me and laughed sadistically.

But he was just a preschooler like me, no bid deal... now people are even more sadistic after being trained in it, not just at school, but on every TV channel and all the "corporate" propoganda.

Who knows what the fuck corporations even are now?! Who could have imagined them all being blackmailed into hailing this shockingly new religion? They all spout the same hate speech that 99% of the media do, all the justifications for people like me to be murdered for doing nothing in my whole life anywhere near as bad as the new anti-saints of whatever even fouler behemoth must be slouching down to his own pillar of salt.

I've never been allowed on even local TV. Was in a dog contest one time local TV filmed... nope. A debate contest that was filmed... nope not in final cut. The last time was in grade school where we assured we'd be on the local TV news that night. After school, I waited for the time, set it to the channel...

Columbine High School got shot up so the positive news about our school never showed up.

Now Disney is advertising they're airing Louis Farrakhan for the 4th of July. This year is the first year of my life that our family can't hold our reunion and I'm worried the enforced distancing is going to shatter our extended family bonds. On Sunday our family tried to at least have some time on that CCP Zoom bullshit and fucking Atari's graphics are closer to anything the best CCP supercomputer could render than Zoom is to a half-way descent family reunion.

And, my cousin works at an aquarium in Atlanta. The aquarium was apparently mostly spared but it was at an intersection of two streets where every single business was destroyed for BLOCKS. After WAY more than a quarantine (etymologically, quarantine refers to 40 days).

Murderous rhetoric and daydreams only build energy when we're not allowed to oppose them. I keep going to work trying to wonder how compassion and cooperation could somehow still happen and my mind just kinda breaks trying to produce a solution so complex an equation.

Hope if I get murdered for being so privileged I had to take more money to be a glorified janitor than I could in software engineering they make it quick and painless at least.

Every time in undergrad I wrote and essay and tried to get feedback it was just "100/100 omg you know how to write a complete sentence"

Then in grad school this absolute trash fuckbird made us all write essays - I wrote the best essay of my life - then he LITERALLY told the class as long as we had had emailed him some sort of file we all got 100% and he wasn't going to read any of them. Then he said he hated Lord of the Rings because it was too Catholic and then he opened his Marx and barfed up its sewage.

Left immediately in protest, next school profs were literally giving girls test answers LITERALLY... like they walked around during the tests, specifically going to the female students, KNOWING THEIR JOBS WERE IN DANGER BECAUSE OF THE EXPLICIT GENDER QUOTAS THEY'D BEEN GIVEN. I watched a prof who had called me out for a wrong quiz answer when actually he was wrong start begging a female student to write down the test answers he was begging her to write down while she was basically saying "fuck off, I was just taking computer science for a test drive and I'm just gonna be a Math major".

Any time I asked any professors at all the schools I tried for life guidance, career guidance, ANYTHING! they had NOTHING. NOTHING to fucking tell me. Um how am I gonna get a job? NO FUCKING MEANINGFUL RESPONSE. How do you expect us all to eventually pay back loans? NOTHING!!! Um how can I have a career so I can eventually have my own home so I can have a family? BIG FUCKING ZERO!!! ALL they wanted was MONEY!!! They had no fucking justifications of what they were doing with THEIR lives much less a legitimate flame of true knowledgeable education to pass on.

They forced me to take feminism classes that taught that women didn't rape women (when I'd been raped by several). Some white prof with a degree in Critical Race Theory who was my coach told me there was no such thing as racism against white people while black people I'd been nothing but nice and open with spewed hate speech, death threats, and genocidal daydreams and were given awards for it.

In general, outside of my immediate family, whenever I've tried to reach out for any sort of guidance / mentorship / WTFIshouldbedoingism I've basically been indirectly told to go find a ditch and die.

2 in my class in Computer Science and sent out so many job applications and the only paying offer I got was $500 for 3 fucking months.

Man, one summer my friend's uncle made him drive combines all fucking summer and tried to stiff him with only $500 bucks and our babysitter CHEWED HIM THE FUCK OUT until proper pay was given for work. These fucking elites turned student loans and "internships" into the new slavery.

I couldn't even find a professor who could help me find a job, much less have my back if an employer tried to rob me. THESE FUCKS DO NOT CARE. They only hate. I don't see much of a way forward, how we can have nice things. I mean, when I got to pre-school or pre-K or whatever first day, I was having trouble with my Capri-Sun and asked another kid for help and he stabbed the straw through and sprayed it all over me and laughed sadistically.

But he was just a preschooler like me, no bid deal... now people are even more sadistic after being trained in it, not just at school, but on every TV channel and all the "corporate" propoganda.

Who knows what the fuck corporations even are now?! Who could have imagined them all being blackmailed into hailing this shockingly new religion? They all spout the same hate speech that 99% of the media do, all the justifications for people like me to be murdered for doing nothing in my whole life anywhere near as bad as the new anti-saints of whatever even fouler behemoth must be slouching down to his own pillar of salt.

I've never been allowed on even local TV. Was in a dog contest one time local TV filmed... nope. A debate contest that was filmed... nope not in final cut. The last time was in grade school where we assured we'd be on the local TV news that night. After school, I waited for the time, set it to the channel...

Columbine High School got shot up so the positive news about our school never showed up.

Now Disney is advertising they're airing Louis Farrakhan for the 4th of July. This year is the first year of my life that our family can't hold our reunion and I'm worried the enforced distancing is going to shatter our extended family bonds. On Sunday our family tried to at least have some time on that CCP Zoom bullshit and fucking Atari's graphics are closer to anything the best CCP supercomputer could render than Zoom is to a half-way descent family reunion.

And, my cousin works at an aquarium in Atlanta. The aquarium was apparently mostly spared but it was at an intersection of two streets where every single business was destroyed for BLOCKS. After WAY more than a quarantine (etymologically, quarantine refers to 40 days).

Murderous rhetoric and daydreams only build energy when we're not allowed to oppose them. I keep going to work trying to wonder how compassion and cooperation could somehow still happen and my mind just kinda breaks trying to produce a solution so complex an equation.

Hope if I get murdered for being so privileged I had to take more money to be a glorified janitor than I could in software engineering they make it quick and painless at least.

Every time in undergrad I wrote and essay and tried to get feedback it was just "100/100 omg you know how to write a complete sentence"

Then in grad school this absolute trash fuckbird made us all write essays - I wrote the best essay of my life - then he LITERALLY told the class as long as we had had emailed him some sort of file we all got 100% and he wasn't going to read any of them. Then he said he hated Lord of the Rings because it was too Catholic and then he opened his Marx and barfed up its sewage.