We keep saying "are you tired of winning". I am. I'm tired, guys. I'm so fucking tired. This last week has been the longest week of the longest month of the longest year of my life.

I was lucky. I have a guaranteed job. I was totally unaffected by the lockdowns. I lost nobody. I live in a relatively safe part of Vegas. My life is pretty good all things considered. But I'm tired. I know many of you aren't as fortunate as me, and I just don't understand how you do it.

I'm a disaffected liberal. I don't always agree with y'all. I'm not against abortion (I have a stance similar to drugs - its going to happen anyway so learn to cope (but liberals are lying... it's not about rights it's about convenience)), climate change and environmental policy is important (but liberals are wildly exaggerating everything like all environmentalists have about everything), I'm an atheist. I was against guns for most of my life until I learned it was all bullshit and lies. I was born and raised in a Democrat household in a Democrat city. I'm single,  no kids, and getting old. And I'm tired.

But I'm here for a reason because I support Trump. I care about America and he clearly does too. Save your "concern troll" shit, my history here speaks for itself.

But I'm tired.

Trump was clearly framed with this Russia shit. But justice doesn't matter. Why do black people get to kill and destroy to get justice for some nobody, but when our entire political machine conspired to overthrow the election and presidency, I don't get justice? Where is it? Why the fuck shouldn't I go out and make my own justice at this point just like these fucking thugs and traitors get to in our streets? I'm tired of being denied justice. I'm tired of being called a conspiracy theorist for something that is not only plainly laid out but people under oath are testifying is true.

Democrats have lied about nearly everything for four years, but the fucking media machine has controlled and covered up everything. The shitty liberal bullshit about how "Fox news is all lies MSNBC and CNN are the truth" is still permanently ingrained and even my own fucking father believes it. He straight up changes his opinions based on what CNN tells him even if it's in total contradiction to last week. There is no measure of lies I can point out that will make him question that. I'm tired of arguing with him, I'm tired of pointing out things like Maddow saying 'the hospital ships won't be ready for months' and him not even realizing how full of shit she is when they pull into the harbors only one week later. I'm tired of reality being altered before our eyes.

Our country was brought to the brink of economic ruin. Thousands of people were poisoned intentionally to drive up deaths. A concerted propaganda campaign drove fear and terror. And when people dared speak up? They were called terrorists. Sociopaths. Murderers. "Brave" healthcare workers stood in front of the protests and got all the photo ops. The left successfully spread the message that these Nazi terrorists just wanted haircuts. Nothing about the tears shed quietly at night as their futures collapsed over what turned out to be a fucking lie. All it took were some leftist infiltrators with signs standing down the street with fake messages.

I'm tired of not being heard. Nobody is silenced like we are. All of social media conspires to silence us. We can't protest without being called monsters. We aren't allowed to have opinions on race issues because of the color of our skin. We arent allowed to have opinions on abortion because of our gender. We arent allowed to have opinions on gay issues because of our orientation. We arent allowed to have opinions on anything because of who we voted for. Because we posted in the 'wrong' subreddit. Because we picked the 'wrong' username.

I love you all but we all know this isn't being heard. Im being heard but I'm not being heard. I'm called a Nazi and told that I deserve violence for it. I'm called a white supremacist. A terrorist. I haven't even done anything, I just voted for the wrong guy. Antifa gets to murder people in the street, but they get widespread validation because "they're just against fascism!". But I don't get that voice speaking up for me.

Communists are destroying this country I once loved and are unstoppable, not without some violent widespread purge for which we would be called monsters for. They've infected every level of society and brainwashed our kids. I feel like a dumb asshole even writing this but it's fucking true. I'm tired of feeling so powerless and overwhelmed, where I could lose my house just because some socialist at the bank decided to 'cancel' me. Where small business owners have their financial providers drop and blacklist them because they find out they're invalids.

I'm tired of having to write every opinion like my prison oppressors are going to go through my words and beat me if they think I said something "wrong". I'm tired of saying I'm tired of that, and just being told "you just want to call people niggers, racist Nazi!".

And now we have uniformed members of the military being guilted into kneeling with terrorists and malcontents. Black people have never had it better in America and that fact is covered up and lied about so we can have a violent leftist insurrection about some bullshit police violence crap that isn't even true. Vile traitors are burning people to the ground and any response to them is 'the REAL violence'.

I'm tired of being the scapegoat for everything. Democrats destroy the economy voluntarily, I get blamed. We get blamed. Trump gets blamed. A cop kneels on some guys neck and  I get blamed. We get blamed. Trump gets blamed. Literally nothing Is the fault of blacks, it all comes down to being the white male who is to blame for everything. I'm tired of carrying this Original Sin for my race, being told that my only cure is to crucify myself on the altar of Woke.

All those healthcare workers who blocked us and called us selfish are now cheering for BLM. All those black people stealing everything that isn't nailed down and I'm not allowed to call them violent thugs or say "this protest is just because black people wanted free shoes". All the people who said I was "killing grandma" for one demonstration are now pretending black people are being genocided.

I'm tired.

This isn't a suicide note or some threat or call to violence. I don't know what this is. All I know is if BLM can justify every terrible thing because "silence is violence", we deserve our violence. If blacks can shoot cops to get justice, we deserve our blood and revenge against those who wronged us. That if these socialists can destroy police stations and monuments because they are the sources of their oppression, we deserve our right to destroy the institutions who have wronged us.

But I'm tired of being told I can't even get that, while bodies lie in the street, a poor old man executed over some TVs, and that is supposed to be justice.

Share this, tweet this, blog this, whatever. I'm tired, man. I'm so tired.

We keep saying "are you tired of winning". I am. I'm tired, guys. I'm so fucking tired. This last week has been the longest week of the longest month of the longest year of my life.

I was lucky. I have a guaranteed job. I was totally unaffected by the lockdowns. I lost nobody. I live in a relatively safe part of Vegas. My life is pretty good all things considered. But I'm tired. I know many of you aren't as fortunate as me, and I just don't understand how you do it.

I'm a disaffected liberal. I don't always agree with y'all. I'm not against abortion (I have a stance similar to drugs - its going to happen anyway so learn to cope (but liberals are lying... it's not about rights it's about convenience)), climate change and environmental policy is important (but liberals are wildly exaggerating everything like all environmentalists have about everything), I'm an atheist. I was against guns for most of my life. I was born and raised in a Democrat household in a Democrat city. I'm single,  no kids, and getting old. And I'm tired.

But I'm here for a reason because I support Trump. I care about America and he clearly does too. Save your "concern troll" shit, my history here speaks for itself.

But I'm tired.

Trump was clearly framed with this Russia shit. But justice doesn't matter. Why do black people get to kill and destroy to get justice for some nobody, but when our entire political machine conspired to overthrow the election and presidency, I don't get justice? Where is it? Why the fuck shouldn't I go out and make my own justice at this point just like these fucking thugs and traitors get to in our streets? I'm tired of being denied justice. I'm tired of being called a conspiracy theorist for something that is not only plainly laid out but people under oath are testifying is true.

Democrats have lied about nearly everything for four years, but the fucking media machine has controlled and covered up everything. The shitty liberal bullshit about how "Fox news is all lies MSNBC and CNN are the truth" is still permanently ingrained and even my own fucking father believes it. He straight up changes his opinions based on what CNN tells him even if it's in total contradiction to last week. There is no measure of lies I can point out that will make him question that. I'm tired of arguing with him, I'm tired of pointing out things like Maddow saying 'the hospital ships won't be ready for months' and him not even realizing how full of shit she is when they pull into the harbors only one week later. I'm tired of reality being altered before our eyes.

Our country was brought to the brink of economic ruin. Thousands of people were poisoned intentionally to drive up deaths. A concerted propaganda campaign drove fear and terror. And when people dared speak up? They were called terrorists. Sociopaths. Murderers. "Brave" healthcare workers stood in front of the protests and got all the photo ops. The left successfully spread the message that these Nazi terrorists just wanted haircuts. Nothing about the tears shed quietly at night as their futures collapsed over what turned out to be a fucking lie. All it took were some leftist infiltrators with signs standing down the street with fake messages.

I'm tired of not being heard. Nobody is silenced like we are. All of social media conspires to silence us. We can't protest without being called monsters. We aren't allowed to have opinions on race issues because of the color of our skin. We arent allowed to have opinions on abortion because of our gender. We arent allowed to have opinions on gay issues because of our orientation. We arent allowed to have opinions on anything because of who we voted for. Because we posted in the 'wrong' subreddit. Because we picked the 'wrong' username.

I love you all but we all know this isn't being heard. Im being heard but I'm not being heard. I'm called a Nazi and told that I deserve violence for it. I'm called a white supremacist. A terrorist. I haven't even done anything, I just voted for the wrong guy. Antifa gets to murder people in the street, but they get widespread validation because "they're just against fascism!". But I don't get that voice speaking up for me.

Communists are destroying this country I once loved and are unstoppable, not without some violent widespread purge for which we would be called monsters for. They've infected every level of society and brainwashed our kids. I feel like a dumb asshole even writing this but it's fucking true. I'm tired of feeling so powerless and overwhelmed, where I could lose my house just because some socialist at the bank decided to 'cancel' me. Where small business owners have their financial providers drop and blacklist them because they find out they're invalids.

I'm tired of having to write every opinion like my prison oppressors are going to go through my words and beat me if they think I said something "wrong". I'm tired of saying I'm tired of that, and just being told "you just want to call people niggers, racist Nazi!".

And now we have uniformed members of the military being guilted into kneeling with terrorists and malcontents. Black people have never had it better in America and that fact is covered up and lied about so we can have a violent leftist insurrection about some bullshit police violence crap that isn't even true. Vile traitors are burning people to the ground and any response to them is 'the REAL violence'.

I'm tired of being the scapegoat for everything. Democrats destroy the economy voluntarily, I get blamed. We get blamed. Trump gets blamed. A cop kneels on some guys neck and  I get blamed. We get blamed. Trump gets blamed. Literally nothing Is the fault of blacks, it all comes down to being the white male who is to blame for everything. I'm tired of carrying this Original Sin for my race, being told that my only cure is to crucify myself on the altar of Woke.

All those healthcare workers who blocked us and called us selfish are now cheering for BLM. All those black people stealing everything that isn't nailed down and I'm not allowed to call them violent thugs or say "this protest is just because black people wanted free shoes". All the people who said I was "killing grandma" for one demonstration are now pretending black people are being genocided.

I'm tired.

This isn't a suicide note or some threat or call to violence. I don't know what this is. All I know is if BLM can justify every terrible thing because "silence is violence", we deserve our violence. If blacks can shoot cops to get justice, we deserve our blood and revenge against those who wronged us. That if these socialists can destroy police stations and monuments because they are the sources of their oppression, we deserve our right to destroy the institutions who have wronged us.

But I'm tired of being told I can't even get that, while bodies lie in the street, a poor old man executed over some TVs, and that is supposed to be justice.

Share this, tweet this, blog this, whatever. I'm tired, man. I'm so tired.