I needed a place to get this off my chest and I figured no better place to vent than to my pedes that may be experiencing the same.

I am a 23 year old soldier and this world is getting harder and harder to endure.

Seeing day in and day out the abuse our own government is dealing us. How they strip us of our rights and then claim their actions reflect the will of the people. Having been relocated from joining the military I feel isolated with no one to confide in, no one to share these troubling events.

My relationship is strained. My girlfriend claims to be apolitical and stresses the importance of not discussing politics between us yet she buys into all the mainstream garbage. She defended the BLM riots as people that are sick of being discriminated against. She critiques the capital hill protest as terrifying as people were carrying zip ties and there were so many calls for death to the politicians online. She couldn't bring herself to vote for trump because he's been accused of sexual assault by several women but had no problem voting for JoePedo even after being showed him groping young girls on live television.

Then the bullshit COVID. I refuse the muzzle. I live my life normally and when called out by the stores I disagree to the mask and if they keep pushing I will leave. My action ends up distressing my girlfriend and she can't understand why I can't just wear a mask to make her comfortable as she won't have to worry about confrontation, being abandoned in the store, or having to leave.

I feel like it's an unhealthy relationship on both sides but the fear of being completely alone, as i am a very private man and can't work my way into relationships very quickly, keeps me holding on with all I have.

I feel like every day I'm tortured for being an honest citizen and soldier and expecting the rest of my country to strive for the same. This state of affairs is destroying my love life, my desire to serve, and my happiness as a whole.

I'll have a number 2, no mayo, double hot sauce.