Another Florida Man here and Can confirm. Used to jump gators in the Everglades on airboats when I was a kid. Used to ride on manatees backs in canals too. Used to pop man o' wars on the Beach because fuck them. We are all the same.
Hey man, God works in mysterious ways, we dont question him, your family that passed no longer suffers in the material world and we should be grateful for the Lord sparing them. I know we haven't heard anything but there's a calm before the storm. At least we have each other and I'm here to lift you up. Live today for your family that isnt/can't because they wouldn't want you to hurt yourself or others and be sad and waste another minute being sad. They want you to have a healthy happy life just as the Lord does. Don't waste it, live for the Lord.
Do it.