Note: I debated qualifying how not racist I was before, but I quickly realized how useless the endeavor was. I'll not attempt it. Those who need to believe I was a racist will do so regardless of any detail I put out.

I have always been an open-minded person. I grew up with a very close friend who happened to be black, and I never really thought anything of it. We grew apart in highschool, but he always seemed pretty well adjusted and I never once thought about him as being 'different' than I.

Then, I joined the infantry. I went through boot in a pretty mixed class, and met my first racist when the rotational platoon sergeant (just a private, like me, we all take turns) referred to an underperforming group as such: "Well, what do you expect from THOSE people?". It took me several moments and a few increduous questions to understand he was a real racist - a unicorn to me at the time. I never spoke a word to him again.

Months later I graduated and found myself in a unit that happened to have a lot of Black, Puerto Rican, Guam and Somoan soldiers. I, and my skin color - were in the minority. I had a decent education and have a reasonable IQ, so found myself FAR more at odds over my demeanor and personality than I did my skin color. Some groups wanted nothing to do with me, but I found the Puerto Ricans were pretty friendly, and the Guam and especially Somoans to be very welcoming and friendly to me. During this period, I learned how my childhood friend felt. Even if I and everyone I knew treated him exactly the same as us - it's impossible he wasn't aware of his skin color. I was constantly aware of mine when the roles were reversed.

That said, I was outright discriminated against repeatedly, sometimes pointedly because of my skin color. It was never that bad. I never got into fights over it, and I stood my ground when necessary and that largely stopped any aggressive discrimination. I did, however, gradually learn just how incredibly racist other cultures were.

We had a full blooded Korean (American born) in the unit who was beaten and discharged with a medical, and a few hispanics that fared a little better, but still had a VERY rough go. It was bizarre in that it appeared they fit in perfectly well, then one day the racial epithets were hurling both directions and it was a brawl.

I cannot say I ever saw a Guam or Somoan soldier fight another person out of racial hatred. I did, however, see immense racist behavior and language from African Americans, Hispanic, and Korean soldiers - and it was MUTUAL and open. Neither group made any effort to deny it when I asked.

Still, this had no profound impact on me. I grew a wider understanding of racial angst and strife, and learned it was pretty natural in most races. I ALSO noticed it didn't seem to be as much of an issue from Island Nations (No clue if there's anything to that. Just an observation is all). Years later a Korean girlfriend of mine laughed when I asked her about it, and proudly stated she is racist against both hispanic and blacks. I was stunned, especially since I had never (and never did) see any racist behavior from her.

Fast forward to Black Lives Matter Post-Cornavirus. I skip the 'African American' descriptor in favor of blacks, because at this point it REALLY is all about skin color, not lineage.

I know all blacks are not doing this. I know there's a lot of peaceful protestors. I know there's powerful money involved purchasing the fireworks, scooters, bicycles, bail money, etc etc. I know there's powerful politicians and a powerful media encouraging and excusing this violence. I know I don't see many older blacks creating this mayhem - it's almost entirely youth involved.

But that said, the cities are now burning or burned. Our history is being torn apart - both good and bad. The nuanced perspective of historical characters is ignored in favor of a lense composed only of pain and anger. There are organized attempts to rewrite US history. Police are under assault, being defunded and driven out (leading to newer, lesser trained officers), criminals are being released into the streets, and the most divisive - angry - hatred I've ever seen spewed on a daily basis.

All the while our media and politicians set fire to the bridges that would lead us back to each other. Our Shared Nationality - Blacks are alternately being told they literally built the country and whites just held them back in chains - while simultaneously being told there is nothing good about America and it must be destroyed. They tell us Nationality is a racist ideal, and we must embrace global collective or we are ignorant xenophobes. We have to worry about things like cultural appropriation on things like hair styles, phrases of speech, or clothing, where we never had to before. Colleges implement and celebrate segregation routinely now. The point is - they WANT us to separate. They WANT us divided. Nationality is/was a bridge between us that we all shared. So they want that bridge - America, burned to cinder.

I deleted my facebook a year ago. I still have a twitter. I don't post - but I read. The absolute vitriol and hatred is overbearing. Blacks are literally TELLING white people they are coming for us. They are TELLING us those whites aiding them now are STILL their enemy. They are TELLING us they are coming for our neighborhoods next.

I, and my family will survive, though. I don't want to be this divided. But if you hate me for my skin - I'll have nothing to do with you. If armed or violent entities come to my neighborhood, I will be forced to do what I was trained to do - to people I desperately do not want to hurt.

I never wanted to be racist. And they ARE right - ALL whites are racist. I've come to realize this. It's not because of any inherent flaw in the white genetic makeup - in fact, racism is a simple gradient in ALL demographics. EVERYONE is racist to one degree or another. Even the most conscientious, BLM-friendly, ultra-hippy is going to feel a little off-balance if they found themselves suddenly transported to a Circle-K in Compton.

That used to be OK. For the most part, the fact we were ALL proud Americans USUALLY led to safer engagements. We shared something. Especially in the military - there was a brotherhood and it mostly won out.

So, I'm a racist now. The media, the BLM movement have convinced me. I HATE the monsters I see out there destroying my country. I HATE anyone who says they are coming to destroy me because of my skin color, or because I own property. But my hatred is tempered with empathy. It's not mindless. I understand that communism has finally gotten its hands around the wedge it needed to tear us open. Democrat politicians tend to shy away from the term (for now), but the BLM leadership has openly expressed their Marxist sympathies.

I won't flail wildly - set anything I don't like on fire, steal, loot, rape, murder. I'll prepare. I'll reach out in hopes someone on the fence might understand me, and see some truth in what I'm saying. I'll stock up. And god-forbid, if the time comes, I'll train and lead those who will fight. I only hope that fight isn't against something so trivial as skin-color.

2016 Was important. It was historic.

2020 will be the most important election of our lives. There is no option to not vote. If you are convinced that we will win - you must still vote.

Putting Donald J Trump in that seat until 2024 is NOT ENOUGH.

Voting down the line R is NOT ENOUGH.

We have to fill the House and Senate with true conservatives. IGNORE the R. It's meaningless. Loser, low-energy forces in the GOP STILL move against the interests of this country in favor of more traditional neocons. They still owe favors to each other, still have their claws in/or are hooked by Old Money.

Make no mistake. Our country is at WAR. We are at WAR with China who is at least honest in their unabashed quest for World Dominance, We are at WAR with Antifa who value CHAOS and Anarchy above all else, we are at WAR with any organization that will politicize and feed racial divide, and we are at WAR with Liberals - who would utterly transform this country into a cold wasteland of regulated speech, thought, and behavior - and suck our wealth into the vaccuum of special interest and redundant summer homes.

Please. Do not sit this election out. Please do not be comfortable. Please look at what they are doing to our country. So many of us served this land in one way or another. So many of us lost brothers and sisters and spilled ours and others blood for it. So many of our forefathers underwent challenges we'll never know or understand just so that we wouldn't HAVE to know or understand them. All of us, even our most underprivileged, still had more privileges than they might have had if they had been born under any of the myriad hellscapes our opponents so desperately want.

Red Pill who you can. ALWAYS seek the truth, and always try to understand your opponent. And most importantly, VOTE in November. A simple victory will not do.

America has given much to all of us. Now she needs something back. This is our chance to give back. It will be historic. It will be the most important election of our lives.

But if you come to my property looking to take something - you're not an American, and you better hope you were trained better than I was.

If you purchase an item on Amazon - check to see if it's made in China. If so, do not buy.

If it doesn't say - purchase the product. When you recieve it, check to see where it was made. If China, add a question to the product on amazon "Where was the product made" and then respond to it "China". Next, consider returning the product if you can do without.

If we all start following those two simple rules in how we interact with Amazon, we can make some change.