I don’t mean to be too rude, but I sincerely hope you did not literally have tears in your eyes. If you really did, please take a moment to step back and collect yourself. Potentially look into seeing someone or reaching out to a trustworthy friend or family member. Not trying to be rude, but now isn’t the time for emotional decisions or breakdowns. It is dangerous for those around you if things really pop off.
The good thing about the UN potentially coming would be we could replenish our ammunition when we are finished with them.