I feel you. I know that I'm lucky to have a job, but working the legal maximum number of hours allowed in my field is killing my brain and body. I wouldn't be able to pull through with this if I weren't blessed with working for an amazing and caring company. I just let my first (albeit quiet) f-bomb drop at work today and the the poor managers came running over to me to see if I was okay and to comfort me. It was funny because everyone else cusses at our equipment all the time but suddenly I do it and they all act like I just found out that I was diagnosed with terminal cancer, lol.
I don't blame the Chinese people just as I don't blame Americans for the Deep State. The people of China are suffering even more from the CCP than we are.