Except for the part where I can't actually make an account without giving them my phone number.

Who made that I'd like to put it on a t-shirt and sell it.

Looks like pizza slices on the lower desk shelf

You're funny commie

Know how I know you are a projecting troll?

A thing about people on the right, is that they tend to be nothing like the caricature that you project.

Judge not lest ye be judged.

God has plenty of love for everyone.

This is a different issue though? The link you posted is regarding flight logs, no?

I'm not ready to give up. I appreciate your support very much. I do know it will get better one way or another. I do know that when I move on It will be for good. That's why I'm not quite ready to accept it.

Honestly, this community is amazing. I'm proud to be a part of what ever this is.

Thank you.

It won't let me edit the original comment. So I hope this gets seen.

This may sound strange - my meditation has been "go get support from god" i didnt really know how or where I'd get what I was hoping for.. I just though on a whim this was the place.

Thank you. Good, supportive and hard comments. It is literally exactly what I needed to hear. At the very least it has lifted my heart and spirit. And believe me, it's been tough going.

I am going to follow up with some of you. I just need to check in for perspective. Sometimes nothing makes sense, and I feel like I must be going crazy.

I am moved, i am blown away.

Good night.

Fwiw I'm not at risk for drugs and alcohol.

Good, hard advice. I literally don't know how to give up, but I'm not naive anymore. Many of these are things I am working on.

I will.

Another issue. Many I feel like I'm up against it.

We haven't gone to church consistently and with intention in a long time. I've been reconnecting through jordan peterson's old testament lectures and talks.

I asked her if she would consider going to church again with me, and got hard no.

I'm hopeful, and such an optimist by nature, but I'm not sure how to break through any of it.

I keep getting brought to tears by the offers of prayers. I don't know what to say. What a... Thing. Thank you. I appreciate the words of motivation.

There's a bit of a problem in that for so many years I was so happy, and she didn't feel loved (wow I wish I had read the love languages book 10 years ago) I can't fix the past, I can fix the future but I don't feel like she will let me.

I appreciate this. Actually. It's a very good way to look at it and I hadn't.

It's like one night all of a sudden one night I became the patriarchy because I wouldn't acknowledge my white privelidge. I was like what? Where is this coming from?

I don't know. It's complicated. How do you break that mentality.

Its such a challenge to even pin down what the real issues are... They always shift and I can't tell if I'm crazy or it's intentional.

I am strong, but this is brutal.

This is something I will not budge on. I am not going anywhere.

This is why I posted here.

This is impactful for me.

Thank you very much for your words. I needed to read this now. You have no idea.

Thank you.

I feel this so much.

We have talked and talked, but it feels like we never talked about the right things. It's been 2 years of me demolishing myself working on us, and her working on herself.

I don't know. That's the only thing I do know. And I love her and my kids. Those are the things I know.

Honestly - I don't know that I have much access to decent counselling. It's one of the reasons I came here... It's anonymous enough, and I know I can count on the people of the Donald.

I have been grieving and trying for two years.

I literally don't know how to quit.

I will do my very best to stay civil. It is so hard. My kids are strong motivation.

Words are like bells... That's wise and well put. I will focus on that.

Thank you

Honestly, your message almost brought me to tears. I appreciate it. I am a strong family safety net for support, but it's different with family. I have to protect her to some degree and my kids so I can't be truly open.

Thank you.

I think I have the sense that this fits. I have a problem in that every time I try to discuss values it ends in defensive arguments. I have been attacked even for patriarchy, privelidge, etc. Its dangerous to discuss because any questioning of the values means I am personally attacking her or controlling her. It's like she sees herself as a victim and I'm the oppressor. But I see her as my equal.

I think a dynamic is that she feels I am controlling her or want to control how she feels. Iwhich is kind of true I suppose?

Another problem is I have adhd and so I hyper-fixate. I am going to make a doctor's appointment to see if there's medication to chill me out.

I genuinely appreciate every single prayer I can get.

I think I have a spoon and she is the ocean.

But I also can't help but fight. We have 2 young kids, and I love my family with everything.

Half the problem is that I can't help but fight.

LOL.

I'll put a message together in a bit. Thank you.