I turned 21 in October, meaning I just barely started adulthood. Yet my country already goes to hell when I JUST fucking started adulthood.

Before I turned 21 I was kinda dissatisfied with how my past was. Not saying it was bad per se as there were lots of good moments but I look back and wish I did things differently. Won't be specific about it but yeah. If Trump had just stayed in office and thus the country having itself kept together, I believed I could've had a bright and colorful future to easily more than make up for how I didn't feel super satisfied with my past.

But now I feel like even that opportunity has been very likely lost ever since this farce transition of power happened. I've said I would have had suicidal tendencies if Biden were to take over, and so far I indeed did contemplate suicide a fuckton. However I've been very slow on acting to do it because I live in a largely red state that is still currently alright living in (meaning if I lived in a shithole leftist controlled state I would've already exited life) and I felt like there was a tiny possibility of taking it all back.

Previously, I thought if by a tiny possibility we took back America, I then would be safe from suicidal thoughts and wouldn't have to contemplate it anymore. However, at this point I recently then changed my mind that I STILL wouldn't be safe from those thoughts after all, even if we did take it back. Why is that you might ask? Because most of my family has taken those experimental, mRNA "vaccine" jabs. After reading all the horror stories of people dying from those jabs, as well as those grotesque doomsday predictions that mass giant-scale death could occur during either the next flu season or some other time, I have never had worse panics inside me.

That most of my family took the jabs could very well be what hit the final nail in the coffin for me, mentally speaking. I am beyond AMAZED that none of them had any serious adverse reactions yet, surprisingly they still operate like they did before the jabs. Like, how? How is that possible? Even my grandmother who is still somehow doing just fine months after both of her shots.

Same for friends that I have known in school and community college. Surprised they're doing just fine afterwards.

While I'm shocked nothing has happened yet to my vaxxed relatives I still have big fears for them in the future. I told them to take vitamins and supplements to try to lessen the odds of anything bad later on. I am doubtful it would work much but I just felt like I had to do something about it. If ONE of them starts having something wrong with them then I would urge the rest of them do everything possible to save themselves even if it means being on a med bed.

Even if we rose up to reclaim America, and even if we went back to being a free country again, that still doesn't remove my worries for my vaxxed relatives. I have no intention of disowning them just because they made a poor choice... the important info just wasn't widespread enough on the internet to fall on enough ears. The future may still be really dark for me because of the fear of them dying from the vax long term effects.

Even if I were to be in a free America again, I feel like I couldn't make up for my slightly dissatisfactory past if my vaxxed relatives die. I'd feel like I would have lost all my chances to live life at it's best potential if that were to happen because of the memories with family. If my vaxxed relatives died, under the scenario of being a free country again I'd maybe only stick around for a few years but then ultimately decided to hang myself because relatives dead from something so easily avoidable is something that would put me in permanent depression and struggle to cope. I just feel too young for them to go so soon and I was not even remotely ready for it.

The only scenario where I'd likely be safe from ultimately hanging myself would be in taking back America AND if my vaxxed family can just get together and hang in there for a long while and do absolutely everything possible to stay alive for as long as possible.

But the fear is that that scenario looks so unlikely, almost impossible.. and assuming it doesn't come to fruition, I will just feel like a failed individual who never lived the kind of life I would've liked, having a past I wish I did differently in and not having the future to be able to make up for it and, possibly, not even having a future to begin with because totalitarianism brings no future unless it is stopped.

I wish I could just rewind time. It's too bad that is impossible. Anything to escape the potential permanent misery I might face in the future, which might unfortunately end up having to be suicide.

I feel mentally drained and lost. I have a big existential crisis and often question if anything is worth it anymore.

Most of my family took mRNA covid "vaccine" shots, though most of them took only 1 rather than 2. Trying to demand them not take the second dose.

I'm absolutely SURPRISED they have not had any adverse reactions yet, even the ones that took 2 shots. It's been over a month since the 2shot ones were vaccinated and still nothing happened. I'm amazed and surprised at it.

However, I'm still panicking over them in the future. I feel like I could very easily lose a lot of my family over something they could've so easily avoided. Feel like they could drop dead at any moment.

I felt the need to do something about it, which is why I told them to make sure to be taking supplements such as HCQ, Zinc, Vitamin D and Aspirin to at least keep it together with their immune system in case the long term effects mess with that.

I would not be a fraction as worried if these vaccines did not exist.

Even if we took back America and either reinstated Trump or put another America First person in office, that doesn't reverse the people that took these sketchy jabs. Like, I just feel like the future is dark either way, wouldn't matter if we punished the traitors or not.

Seeing the horror stories about people dying from the jabs as well as doomsday predictions just nearly gives me a heart attack and makes me horrified for my family that took it, making ne think they will die at any moment, despite the fact that none of them have had any adverse reactions and they currently operate no differently from before.

Same with friends I've known since school who took it, except one of them only got sick for a day then recovered and doing fine atm.

I'm only 21 and admittedly rather autistic. In recent years, especially since the plandemic, family was the only reason I haven't been completely isolated. If they die so soon.. I'm not going to know what to do with myself. I will be in massive depression. I will not be able to mentally handle it.

To anyone who reads this, have you had family or friends that took a jab? Did they survive? Did they have bad adverse reactions? Do you worry for them and try whatever you can to save them?

It's ultimately ones own decision to take a jab but it feels too ridiculous for me to abandon/disown someone just because of a bad risky decision they made.

I thought this farce takeover was gonna put me in a depression and an existential crisis. It indeed did for me. However, the experimental jabs have hugely worsened that for me. I feel like I am about to lose people I've known at any moment. I wish to save them, I've already asked many of them to take vitamins like I said earlier.

Again, even if we took out the traitors and went back to being a free country, we could still be hit with a huge loss that might outweigh it.

If my family dies from this shit, I will be in an inescapable existential crisis and might just want to exit the world. I won't be able to cope with it at so young, and they've always been ones to talk to when in need.

We are easily the most redundant, the most pointless and the biggest failures of human beings in history, and we'll go down as such. Our existence was a mistake.

Born on this planet just to end up like this. Seriously, we might as well have never been born to begin with. Again, there was no good point in our existence. We are failed individuals with failed lives.

We're going to go to hell when we die. There is no question about that. We were born worthless pieces of shit.

On the other hand, our enemies were essentially born winners. Despite being evil, they will unfortunately go to heaven because they actually succeeded at life. At least they didn't fail at life like we did. They actually did something meaningful to the world even if it was evil stuff.

There is no reason why all of us shouldn't either shoot ourselves in the back of our heads, drown in a lake, jump off huge heights, crack our necks with nooses, or intentionally get ourselves destroyed in vehicular accidents. If failed lives like us knew better, we'd admit that we are failures and should commit suicide to rightfully assert our place.

I dunno, I've become to hate myself and hate life at this point, and have had a big existential crisis ever since Biden got in office.

I'd have no interest to be alive but disarmed and control. "Give me liberty or give me death" and "better dead than red" very much apply.

Should I kill myself at that time? I'm surprised I have yet to do it but it is probably because I'm just waiting for shit to hit the fan so my suicide will look more justified.

Did Floyd have any idea his death was going to cause tons of chimpouts?

If you don't want commies dead and if you don't celebrate it when they die, then you're too weak-minded.

And they'll try to deport us from our own country. Paint the real illegal aliens as the "American people" and declare us as the illegals.

I'm in the process of buying rope to crack my neck with because I've lost all confidence in the world.

Had it ever crossed your mind that the democrats are most likely trying to demoralize red voters and make them want to boycott voting? If enough people boycotted voting then the dems won't even need to cheat to win anymore. No longer will they need to put in all the effort to make all the fake votes.

So by boycotting voting, you're giving the left what they want.

Demoralization has proven to be a serious weapon for the left.

What the hell do you gain by boycotting elections? "Oh yeah, let's stop voting, that'll show em!!!1111" People in Venezuela already did that. They accomplished fuck all by doing that, in fact they really just dug deeper in their graves.

Why give up the election process entirely?

I know you will try to say "we're not voting our way out of this mess". Yeah, no fucking shit. That's if we don't get involved in our local/state government, or organize into groups to pressure election integrity. So why not do that?

You don't see Trump and other America First big names telling people to give up on elections forever, and I don't think they're stupid enough to say we just have to vote like previously. They most likely mean they want us to get involved. Precinct committeemen, you know.. that's how the dems took over, time to do the same thing.

Alex Jones and Dr. Vernon Coleman have said this will be the case.

How the hell can the vaccinated be saved? Can they take supplements to try to protect their immune system as much as possible?

There's a reason I am fear mongering in my mind. Like I said before, I have had relatives who took it. I check on them every day.. while some got temporarily sick after taking it, currently they are doing okay and at the moment no different from before. Of course this means nothing in the long run considering the long term effects...

I don't want to hear that "you get what you deserve" because that's implying you want me to not grief should relatives die from whatever long term effects there is. We can't rewind to time back to before they took the shot, you know. If it's possible for your vaccinated loved ones to be saved why waste the opportunity?

And yes I'm that guy that constantly contemplates suicide, however I'll be fair, I genuinely wouldn't want to live if my relatives died from an easily avoidable vaccine's side effects unless they can do something to save themselves.

If only it were possible for a doctor or someone else to come up with something to reverse it and try to prevent a catastrophe from happening.

Is Alex Jones actually legitimate in everything he predicted or does he just exaggerate to freak us out? I know he predicted a pandemic way previously, but he believes humanity will take a species-threatening toll with the jabs.

Hasn't there been cases where vaccinated people have been injured and then recovered? Who had someone they knew that went through that? Can a covid jab be survivable even in the long run?

My head will explode if it's the former, especially if my vaccinated relatives died from it.. so far they all survived and, some got sick for a day but recovered and currently say they are no different from before.

That reason being is the vaccine, too many people already took it.

Look at what Dr. Vernon Coleman said. In the next fall and winter there will be a mass death event due to the vaccination.

That means humanity is sentenced to mass fuckery and near extinction.

At this point, the cabal doesn't even need to take anymore action themselves, the damage has already been done with the vaccine shots and a genocide is already set to happen.

We could literally rise up and take the country back from the cabal, and we could literally install Trump back in office, but we'll still ultimately lose in the long run because tons of us will die in the end of this year and the start of next year.

Even if the cabal were locked up behind bars or killed via execution, they'd either laugh behind bars or laugh in hell when they hear about the extinction event, to where it would hardly mean shit to take their power away from them when they still left a deadly irreversible mark on us.

So I think we are completely fucking fucked, doesn't matter if the best case scenario happens and we rose up to beat the elites because we'll still be in a hard lose situation in the long run with the vaccinations.

I have had relatives that took the shot, so far none of them have died, but if they do die I'm just gonna kill myself via hanging or drowning since I can't stand to live when my relatives could've easily avoided vaccine death assuming it happens to them.

Are they trying to make me feel demoralized?

Are they trying to make me feel depressed?

Are they trying to make me feel despaired head to feet?

Are they trying to make me give up all hope and faith, and think I have no future in life?

Are they trying to get me to hate myself?

Are they trying to make me have an existential crisis?

Are they trying to make me think I'm a redundant and pointless individual?

Are they trying to make me think that life is pointless?

Are they trying to make me feel like I have failed in life?

Are they trying to make me ashamed of my existence?

Are they trying to make me wish I was never born?

And most of all... are they trying to get me to kill myself?

I don't know if they are trying to make people contemplate suicide and eventually commit, but if they are then they're honestly doing a good job at making me want to contemplate it.

That reason being that too many people in America already took the COVID vaccine. And I mean, I don't really intend to lay the blame on Trump since he wouldn't have ever made it mandatory in any capacity like the government wants to, there'd probably be much less vaccinations if he never left office. And I don't believe he would even think about doing the "vaccine passport" abomination that Biden wants.

I wouldn't be 10x as fear-mongering in my mind if it weren't for the vaccine.

But here's my question: What's exactly in it for vaccinated people? Are ALL vaccinated people doomed to drop dead soon at any moment, or is it that most of them are just going to be extra vulnerable to future diseases/outbreaks? So if a third of the country took a shot, that means a third of the country is doomed to die before the end of the year? Or does there have to be a disease outbreak to make that happen? Would the CCP need to release another bioweapon for that?

I fear the vaccines may have caused permanent irreversible damage already, I feel like the bureaucrats don't even need to do a lot more to destroy the country at this rate. They could hypothetically leave their positions and they'd have done enough permanent damage to the population with the vaccines as is, if all of the vaccinated are doomed to drop dead like flies. Even if the best scenario happened and Trump and Americans were to rise up and gain back power ASAP and arrest/execute the traitors, that still doesn't reverse the amount of people that got vaccinated, meaning the country may still be fucked forever.

If the best case scenario happened where Trump got back in office due to audits, he'd have to sanction the absolute fuck out of CCP and punish them in every way to prevent them from unleashing another bioweapon. And doctors would need to do or make something to help the vaccinated to prevent future problems they may have.. if that's even possible. If not, then fuck...

If that stuff isn't possible if Trump got back in office, then I think America is kinda already sentenced to permanent disaster to where taking back the country from commies may not mean shit. Even if Trump and populists got back in power and punished the commies, it might not matter in the long run. The damage may have already been done with the amount of vaccinations that happened unless doctors can make something to help reverse the effects, or at least minimize future damage from the vaccines.

Even if the commies got punished, they'd probably laugh when they're either behind bars or in hell (depending if arrested or executed) if they were to hear about masses dropping dead assuming everyone that took the vaccine is doomed to die, at that point they may still permanently win in the end even if we took their power away and punished them because they'd still have left a deadly irreversible mark that can't be removed.

The audits better go through, and if the best case scenario happens and Trump can be reinstated back into office, then he'd need to take down CCP in any way possible to prevent another bioweapon unleash, and doctors will need to find a way to prevent or minimize catastrophes that the vaccines might do, because even if Trump were back in office America may still be fucked if a big chunk of the population is doomed to die if we assume every vaccinated person is doomed to die soon. I better fucking hope that isn't the case.

I don't know how many people died from the vaccine. I assume as of right now it's a tiny percentage that died out of the people that took it, but I assume the percentage will increase. How many of you took it and survived, or did you have a family member that took it and survived?

I have relatives that took it. Thankfully they're still alive after weeks. If they die it might make me wanna suicide knowing how it could've been so avoidable. Unless they survive long enough for doctors to have any possibility of doing something to reverse/halt the bad effects.

Can gene therapy be treated? CAN doctors do anything to help it if it gets too bad? Or is it irreversible and that all of the vaccinated people, which is actually a scarily large percentage of the US population, are just highkey fucked in every way?